Seasonal Change

I have heard people speak before on seasons with regards to friendships. I don't think I ever really understood that concept until recently. I went through a period where I lost several friend I had known for some time...this happened about a year and a half ago. Then in the last few days I have gone through a similar separation. This time it was from a group of women I met online while planning my wedding. With the first set of friends I was...am...heartbroken, but they decided our friendship was of little value to keep it. Through that (and other situations in my life) I became depressed and began pushing other people away. I know that I alienated many people through this period as well and have been trying to mend some of those bridges as I work to pull myself up and become the positive person I used to be.

However, this most recent loss fees much more like a gain. I allowed myself to believe I was close to these women and allowed their opinions to hold some amt of validity to me. I realized today that I don't want to surround myself with negative people or with people who put so much stock in the things that I find trivial. It is nothing against these women...it just isn't what I want for my life. I want to surround myself with people that lift eachother up and don't bring people down. With women that search for solutions and strive to make thier lives better as opposed to people who hard on negatives and complain about the small things they see that are wrong.

I used to be a very positive person, and I know that person is still in me somewhere, but I have lost sight of the things that are important to me...God, my husband, family, and school. I have no need (or room) for drama and people that aren't interested in the same things I am. I need to refocus myself and allow myself and my life to come back to what I want it to be. I need to take control of myself, my relationships, my work life, my home life, and my spirituality. I need to prioritize again and bring myself back into focus.

It is amazing to look back on your life and all of a sudden feel like, "oh, yeah...that is what it was all about. How did I ever forget that?" But I am there right now. My focus for the next few months will be on becoming a healthier person all around...healthy marriage, healthy physically, healthy mentally, and healthy financially. This will definitely be a journey, but I am so excited to get started and can't wait to reap the benefits of the outcome!

Moving Time

James and I have finally made the decision to move. We anticipate moving at the end of July unless anything super weird comes up and we can't find an apartment in Tulsa. I spent the last few days in Tulsa apartment hunting and spending time with James's family. It was awesome! Well...the spending time with family part. The apartment hunting was fruitful, but now I am sitting by my phone waiting for the call to say that we were approved (fingers crossed). After 1/2 the day all the apartments seemed to look the same and it started to get sort of frustrating. Moving brings odd feelings and apprehensions you never knew you were capable of having. I have never lived this far away from my family. I will especially miss my sister and my niece. It will definitely be hard to not see them as often as I have over the past few weeks (at least once a week). I hope that they will find time to come down and visit us. We will definitely be keeping in touch and visiting fairly regularly. Anyway, I guess that is all for now. I don't know if anyone is really reading this yet, but I am hoping to post more of our adventures in moving (and in Oklahoma). Later!

Post-Wedding Wrap Up

So the wedding has come and gone and so has the honeymoon. They were both so wonderful! So many family and friends with us for our wedding day and then such amazing, relaxing alone time for the honeymoon. Anyway, now our wedding pictures are up at www.joshsolarphoto.instaproofs.com. If you want to order pics, please let me know b/c we have the rights to the pics and I will be posting them on another website that will be cheaper. Enjoy!